current mood: artistic
Had a false awakening from my nap today, tried to "wake up" but was paralyzed and unable to do more than open one eye-dream contained the usual sleep paralysis dread of someone is going to attack me while I lay immobile but this time, there was also the fear of something wrong w/my head? Did eventually manage to drag my self to a phone for help, still only able to see from one eye - the left eye wonder what the significance there?
Haven't had too many scarey dreams lately, wondering if stretching myself more - being more open and direct is trigering fear.
I was walking down the street and man was walking by from the opposite direction, just as he was about to pass me he said "hello". I said "hello" back, glad that society has not degraded so much that one can't share a simple pleasantry with a passing stranger, but then, he continued speaking as he moved on by (while giving me a puzzled and perhaps annoyed, and a (god forbid) pitying look. It seems he was chatting on his cell phone which consisted of some camoflaged little button in his ear and not speaking to me: innocent passerby and tentative reacher outer to my fellow humans.
So many distractions in the world seem to act as a barrier between humans, a barrier from the present moment, a barrier between us, a divider not a uniter, dividing here from there and you from me and ominously dividing cells.
Look up: there are cell phone towers & attenaes all around you, are they harmful? I guess time and the guinea pigs (us) will tell.
DREAM: k leaving, miss her, self conscious around lesbians or thinking about that lifestyle, self conscious around Canadians - cute guys/potential bf... and energy worker trying to help me "move energy upwards" from my legs - which I'm supposed to relax, to upper body (shins hurt all day today from hiking/dancing?) She's dangling me from my arms to try to relax my stubborn legs that don't want to relax....big wave/tsunami coming, me and K holding on to eachother. Holding my breath/preparing to die but still alive after it passes...end up in an all white environment, it's the "land of the lost".
DREAM: baggie of my regurgetated chocolate goo, dentist tells me they are sending it off to have my pancreas tested.